For the right reasons

Forewarning: This post is not as fun as the 1st one I posted today (as if one post a day isn't enough?) :)

So, for starters...I was back down (or up, depending which way you look at it) to .8 gained since my ending hcg weight. That fasting til dinner REALLY works well, so well in fact, I could see myself doing it like 1x a week or so (maybe?) (who am I kidding? I love eating ;) in the future on a regular basis (like I said maybe ;)

Anyways...I don't even want to talk about all the bits and handfuls I have had of candy and some chips and what have you...in the past week. Needless to say I am not proud of my eating choices.

So my point here is I was realizing this morning, that i am in a "new era" of my life as far as eating is concerned. Seriously! It's like I have ALWAYS been on a diet or trying to lose weight, so now that I have found the answer to get the weight off and am just trying to maintain...I feel like I can eat whatever I want and frankly I am kind of tired of "healthy food" so I feel like I can (and I sort of can) eat whatever I feel like (as long as within reason) and I don't gain much weight and if I do gain over 2 pounds, I can just fast and wa-la the unwanted 2 pounds are gone. The problem? I kind of feel like crap when I eat like crap and it can't be healthy to eat 1/2 a pound of licorice (o and don't forget the coffee :) for breakfast! I mean in one way....this is a dream come true for me...I mean, I don't really have to worry about what to eat or not eat....but in another way, it's not healthy or good. (I can't say i have been very patient with my kids lately, for example)

And working out, yes, my baby really prevents me from getting to the gym most days, but I can't say I am sad about it, really. I mean, I don't really FEEL like working out...so I don't make any effort to get there after DH gets home or get out and jog around the neighborhood and I totally could (at least sometimes) And I do feel so much better when I work out a few times a week. (I did get to go this morning and it does feel great once you do it)

ANYHOW! LOTS of rambling for ya. But, the point here is that I think I need to learn to eat right and exercise for the right reasons.

Note to self: Work on the above. :)