Friday, September 30, 2011

My birthday


Happy Weekend! It's been a good week... am glad. :)

I had a wonderful birthday, thanks :)
I spent the morning (grocery) shopping with my mom :) And the kids were actually real sweet all (well, mostly:) all day. At dinner time, martin actually made it home to eat with us :) Then we had a little party with the kids. They got me a new grocery tablet for the fridge, my favorite hersheys cookies and cream bar and a starbucks gift card all picked out by (hmmm?) ME :) That's being a mom sometimes. Hubby felt so bad, but he just did NOT have time :) (he got a new position at work, and at month end it's crazy getting inventory counts done.

Anyhow, then at 730 I headed over to my friend maryanne's house where my hubby had invited a bunch of my friends, we just talked a lot, ate good snacks, drank wine and they were super generous, I got a bunch of gift cards, to target, starbucks, java crew. They all took turns giving gifts and saying nice things about me. It was so sweet...Made me feel so loved! :)

Otherwise, all is well. I still haven't made it to the gym...I am waiting for macys cold to get better. But I feel happy and content. It's nice to actually "feel" that way sometimes!

Hope you have a great weekend.

Monday, September 26, 2011

Tomorrow is Macy's first birthday

Happy Birthday, baby girl. Hard to believe it's been a year since Macy survived a crazy birth! (I had placenta abruption during my induction and was raced in for an emergency c-section. She wasn't breathing at first and had a very faint two minutes they lost that, but they were able to save her and not only that (even though they expected to find problems due to lack of oxygen) she is perfectly normal! :) She's our miracle baby and we are so thankful we have her. She brings SO much joy to our family!

Tomorrow we plan to have a small party with her favorite aunt and her "grandma" rosemary. And everyone is excited :) I will be making pumpkin cupcakes with whip cream and sprinkles on top! :) The kids are so funny. They are totally excited she can join them in eating peanut butter and honey sandwiches for lunch :)

I should go. It's storytime ;) but I just wanted to say. We are good. And quitting hcg was probably the best decision I ever made! :) and my weight is holding steady at 159.6. So, I am relieved.

Have a happy happy week!

Friday, September 23, 2011

Moving on


So, I made an executive decision to be done with hcg. Yesterday as I was sitting there thinking (barely able to fold laundry, I was so weak) I thought...why am i doing this..I am actually in a happy place right now...Why am I messing with that?

I've felt like my life was so out of my control for so long now...but recently (as I mentioned in a previous post) I am finally starting to feel like, if I really devote all my attention to my job all day long, I can actually manage it...and sometimes, kind of like it. :) I don't mean to sound depressing or anything, that's just the truth.

I've had lots of good days in the past week, and that is a change for me. I want to like my life and there is no reason I need to be any, with that said....
I am moving on. :)

I plan to keep tabs on my weight, by making healthy food for us all and working out a few days a week, but i weigh 160(159.4) and that is ok with me. (And tereza yeah, Martin says I am hot ;) The other day (it was so sweet) ...(actually it was 5:45 am and I was barely awake standing at the kitchen sink making a bottle for sweet baby Macy) He actually said these words ;) "you look so good. No really. I just want to take the time to tell you I am so proud of you. You have four kids and look better than ever ;) (That means a lot to a person who's been struggling with their weight for 17 years,...has it really been that long? wow, I AM getting older.)

Speaking of birthday is next thursday. Yep, happy birthday to me! :) Tomorrow morning Hubby is taking me on a date. I am pretty excited about it. It's been WAY too long. And on my birthday, Hubby arranged a birthday party for me. I am excited about that too. :)

This morning I met Ruth Anne at the kids club so the kids could play and it was super nice we got to catch up too. :) Now, I need to go soon and do some chores. I am going to make banana bread for a after school snack and then I am going to put the laundry's been sitting in the living room for far too long.

Yes, I realize this post is totally and completely super random and I appreciate you sticking around and finishing reading...if you did.


Thursday, September 22, 2011

Not according to plan

um hi,

So this is so not going according to plan ...I assumed I would at least lose a few pounds before these types of problems occured. But, ahh! This morning I was up .6 to 159. One friend suggested maybe my body is trying to say hello...this is a good weight for me! And I agree...I just don't know what to do since I am only on day 6. I am super nervous that if I just quit it will mess with my metabolism and that's not really ok with me. . but if I that wasn't a potentional issue, I would quit in a heartbeat (especially since I have been having such a hard time having enough energy for "my life".

Anyhow, that's where I am at with hcg. (oh and I am doing an apple day today) Otherwise I am doing much better than in a long time. I feel like I can (barely) :) manage my life and all the things I need to do, but I am happy to do them.. Everything isn't a chore anymore. I can actually, sometimes, enjoy my kids...instead of feeling like they are all always talking and needing something at the same time. I am super thankful and no, I am not saying everything is easy and always hunky-dory. I just feel like a little bit sane again. ;)

Hope your week is going well, it's almost friday!

Wednesday, September 21, 2011

Today was hard

I am finding it hard to keep up..with everyone and everything. . I don't have any energy. . I guess I am busier than I was in one way (what with dropping off kids in am and picking up at noon and at 330 and my kids are busy anyhow....always :)
So, that's what I am finding tough this time...not cravings, but feeling tired or whatever.
I only lost .2 today, so hoping for more tomorrow.
I better go do dinner cleanup and homework and brush teeth and laundry etc. :)
hope you are well.

Tuesday, September 20, 2011

Day 4

Hi there,

I missed posting a day only cuz i was busy....anyhow,

This round is going well, quite well so far. . I am not saying it's no issue, cuz every once in a while when I slow down a bit, I realize I am feeling hungry or that eating something different from my menu sounds good, but it's really not that big a deal. . but i know that's cuz my life is really busy. It's a good busy though. I am finding when I just take the time for all the little things my kids need and to just enjoy their life and what's going on with them, it goes so much better.. if that makes any sense at all.

This morning I was 158.6. So I am down 1.4 pounds from my starting weight (I think). I'll take it :) It all adds up. It's been real nice to just see the scale going down, at this point.

I best go for now. My laundry is getting behind and I want to fold it up and put it away before my brother comes for dinner. (He is watching my kids :0 :) so I can go to the gathering for all the young sisters tonight. (Hubby may end up here too, but I just don't know. He got a few new things added to his plate at work, it'll be busy for him (for me :) for a while here. But, I oddly ;) feel up to it. I haven't talked about it much on here.. but I've felt pretty overwhelmed for a while now.
But lately, I guess since school started I have been feeling so much better. I feel like I can manage my life now. That doesn't mean I am good at it, but I feel like I can be, if I try real hard :)

Anyhow, I gotta go for now...later!

Sunday, September 18, 2011

Day 2

Day 2 has gone well.
I have to admit I was a bit disappointed to still be up 2.2 pounds from my beginning weight. This morning I was 162.0, but I know i will lose it, and I am already started...2 days down 16 to go. . . whatever happens with the scale happens :)

Today we went to the conference for the morning and then hit the grocery store..whole family in tow...always a treat! :) and then the kids had naps and I ran a couple errands (hubby's tire was flat, so I tried to replace it for him...only to learn the tire stores are closed on sundays??)

Anyhow, then we went to the park for a picnic dinner only to be attacked by a swarm of well...such is life. It's been a nice weekend anyhow...and now I am ready to sleep for like the next 20 years. :) just joking, but I am tired, so I will be back tomorrow sometime.

Hope you had a wonderful weekend!

Saturday, September 17, 2011


So this morning I weighed.............

164.2. Holy cow! That's insane. But anyhow, I am doing this and I have to at least lose a few pounds. Right? Right :)

Today has gone fine so far. Black coffee for breakfast then off to the races...getting kids ready to go for the day...then chicken salad I packed and took with me and now I am doing a bit of housework while the kids nap and having another coffee.

Here's to hoping the scale is down at least a couple pounds in the morning? :)

Friday, September 16, 2011

Sick of food

Ahh, I am done eating! I know in a few days I will probably want to take that back. But I am done eating and ready to start the 500 calorie portion of this diet. Bring it on, HCG! :)
This morning I was 160.6 and I am sure will be up more in the morning, but that's the way this diet goes. In my previous rounds, I was back down to my original weight(pre-loading weight...this round 159.8) after the first day of the 500 calorie portion. So, we shall see. But, I am excited about this.

In other news, i am so super glad it is friday. Even though this weekend will be busy (with our church fall conference all weekend) I am looking forward to seeing hubby and hopefully "relaxing" sunday afternoon and evening.

Happy weekend!

Thursday, September 15, 2011

Gonna ...JUST DO IT!

Hey there,

So, I know it seems random, but I decided to just do it. HCG. :)
I got my new drops yesterday afternoon and I just feel ready, so I am EATING today. Loading up on fat to last me through the round. :)
This morning I was 159.8 pounds, so I am 15 pounds away from my goal. I don't expect this round to take me to my goal, I just hope it will get me down to 150.? (I think I will lose less this round, as I am closer to my goal and also cuz I have already done 2 rounds. I have heard you lose less the more rounds you do???)

Anyhow, on a totally different note. we seem to be getting settled in with the school thing. Which I am super thankful about. I met a friend who has 2 little girls my little girls ages, at the park this morning and Mia had a blast. Now it is rest time and I am tired, so I think I will sleep after putting in a load of laundry. I am starting to feel more sane. . . Which is nice. :)

Hope you are doing well. I will be back soon.

Wednesday, September 14, 2011


Happy Wednesday!

This week seems to be flying right by. Today Mia, Macy and I visited the library for storytime. It was real nice for Mia, she seems to be a bit jealous that the big kids have school and she has nothing new and special :) So, I wanted to do something fun for her. :)

This morning I was down to 159.4. I am not sure why...I guess I am a bit too busy to think much about eating. ;)

I don't really have anything else to say. But, I guess I should be working on laundry, so I will go for now.

Have a good one.

Tuesday, September 13, 2011

A good report


The first day of Kindergarten went splendid. Ky loved it and when he got home was in great spirits and super cooperative. And now is taking a nap. AHH! I think I love kindergarten or the teachers or whatever. I am so relieved (many years of worrying have gone into this day, case you don't know us well,..I thought I would explain)

Today has been a good day. I just finished tidying up. And go to get Brooklyn in a few minutes. Then we will go to grandma's to get Aunt Kara who is babysitting for us tonight for a parents meeting. . I am looking forward to that (I am just praying DH will make it though, since he called a few minutes ago to report a very stressful crazy day at work :( Oh well...such is life.

This morning I was still at 160.4 pounds.

I should go for now, but I hope you are having a terrific tuesday!

Monday, September 12, 2011

So many possiblities, so little time :)


Happy Monday to ya. I can say that, cuz it is almost over :) :) Actually it was a pretty good day...Today we visited Ruth Anne to celebrate Ky's last day before he starts school. (and to celebrate Ruth Anne and I being friends, of course :)

Tomorrow my baby boy starts kindergarten. In one way, sad... another, happy. He needs something to do for part of the day and I need some time to think, so it's good :) I almost can't believe I have two and a half hours with ONLY 2 kids. :) It's gonna be good. The possibilities of what I could do in that time are endless! I mean...I could maybe actually talk to my friends,...if I tried to visit them ;) or I can maybe get in a workout at the gym...or I could actually clean like really house or organize the kids clothes (like that BIG pile in the corner of my room that I've been adding to since baby Macy was born. NEEDS TO GET GONE! :)
Anyhow, just what's on my mind today. OF COURSE, I will miss him and I really hope he loves school.

On the subject of my's been the same for the last 2 days...160.4 and I am ok with's 3 pounds down from one point last week. (I know weighing every day may seem anal to some people but if you have fought your weight your whole life, you might understand it. It is reassuring to me to know I still weigh 50 pounds less than a few years ago ;)

All in all, I am doing pretty good and I hope you are too.

Saturday, September 10, 2011

A different decade

Hey there,

So, I just wanted to share....I was down to 159.8 this morning. I am real excited to be back in the 150,s and i hope to stay there :) (well, secretely I hope to one day be in the 140,s but anyways!!)
I ordered 2 bottles of my favorite hcg, the spray,...It should be here in 1-5 business days...I plan to reevaluate at that point, but most likely get started with a round right away.

Not much else is new. I took Mia out for some mommy/daughter time and ran a bunch of errands this morning. It was thought goodness she can talk! (like her mama :) but real nice. I found her a Super cute pair of nikes for $12. She LOVES them, so that was fun. Now we just NEED to find Brooklyn a pair of school shoes, but i am DONE with the running around for today, so I think we will do that tomorrow when DH gets back from fundraising (rental cooking).

Other than that,..what else to report? Hmmm...I fixed my favorite pair of shoes with super glue :) :) (the flowers on the top were falling off) Ruth Anne promised me a pedicure and coffee date for my birthday at the end of the month and My favorite tv shoes are coming back soon :) and we plan to have a bbq and hang outside...enjoying the last of the summer weather (i don't actually know it's the last of just sounded good to say that. :)
Oh and my baby is almost ONE! oh my gosh, this year has flown by!
Amen! :)

Wednesday, September 7, 2011

I'm alright! ;)

Hey there,

Sorry for the lack of posts lately. . I have just been real busy getting caught up on laundry from all the vacationing and then getting kids ready for school and then baby macy is teething (or something !!!:) and ya know how it is? life is busy.

But, I am good. I am feeling super good about this school thing! :) Routine is good. Brooklyn went for her first whole day today and in her words "just loved it" :)
Ky heads in on tuesday. Should be interesting :) He is all gung-ho! but i did take him in for his testing today and he was all nervous but excited and concentrated real hard for like 10 min, but as soon as he could (as I chatted with his teacher)was doing somersaults on the reading rug :) :) :) That's MY BOY! :) Love him

My weight is 161. something lately. I want to be rid of my midsection but am just not so sure I am up to fighting that fight yet, still debating,....but I do have a call coming from the health food store once more hcg drops are I guess I am mostly leaning toward doing a round soon.

All in all, life is good. We are settling in for the fall (i baked my first loaf of zucchini bread for the season this afternoon.) And my family was happy.

Have a good one.

Saturday, September 3, 2011

About blogging..

Sometimes i just feel like posting, and sometimes I don't. Obviously lately I don't really feel like it so much ;)

I am good though. It's been a busy, stressful summer for me. It's been hectic for me..trying to juggle keeping my busy 4, 5 and 6 year olds happy and also a baby, who has different needs than they do (obviously! ;) And with DH working, A TON I've had lots of days that didn't feel so bright, with no light seeming to be at the end of that tunnel (if ya know what I mean?) But things are starting to look up again. DH has been making it home for dinner most nights lately, (even if half the time it is a VERY late dinner :) and he is getting a good bonus for all those long hours and possibly a newer position at work with better pay.

The kids are SUPER excited to start school this week and I am excited for a bit more of a schedule.
I am hoping to get back to the gym after dropping Ky off at kindergarten and it will be nice to have a bit of time with just the "little girls".

About my weight, it's up in the 161's these last few days, but I am totally pmsing, so that is expected.
I am not sure what my plan is as far as my weight goes. I really want to do another round of hcg and I am seriously considering it...once the kids are in school and we are settled in that routine but I am kind of nervous, cuz i feel like it added to my stress level over the summer, which I don't really need(more stress)... It's most important to me that I am good to my kids, but it really is nice to feel good about myself and currently..I don't. I feel like even though I am way thinner, I still have at least 10 pounds to lose (and my doctor backed me up on this, so I know I am not out of line thinking this)
...Hcg well...but it IS stressful. But then again, so is any diet then I think I should just be good with weighing 160, but that is stressful too, cuz I don't feel good about it...I know I am totally rambling, so I will sign off for now.
Have a great weekend!