My birthday

Hi,

Happy Weekend! It's been a good week... am glad. :)

I had a wonderful birthday, thanks :)
I spent the morning (grocery) shopping with my mom :) And the kids were actually real sweet all (well, mostly:) all day. At dinner time, martin actually made it home to eat with us :) Then we had a little party with the kids. They got me a new grocery tablet for the fridge, my favorite hersheys cookies and cream bar and a starbucks gift card all picked out by (hmmm?) ME :) That's being a mom sometimes. Hubby felt so bad, but he just did NOT have time :) (he got a new position at work, and at month end it's crazy getting inventory counts done.

Anyhow, then at 730 I headed over to my friend maryanne's house where my hubby had invited a bunch of my friends, we just talked a lot, ate good snacks, drank wine and they were super generous, I got a bunch of gift cards, to target, starbucks, java crew. They all took turns giving gifts and saying nice things about me. It was so sweet...Made me feel so loved! :)

Otherwise, all is well. I still haven't made it to the gym...I am waiting for macys cold to get better. But I feel happy and content. It's nice to actually "feel" that way sometimes!

Hope you have a great weekend.

Tomorrow is Macy's first birthday

Happy Birthday, baby girl. Hard to believe it's been a year since Macy survived a crazy birth! (I had placenta abruption during my induction and was raced in for an emergency c-section. She wasn't breathing at first and had a very faint heartbeat..at two minutes they lost that, but they were able to save her and not only that (even though they expected to find problems due to lack of oxygen) she is perfectly normal! :) She's our miracle baby and we are so thankful we have her. She brings SO much joy to our family!

Tomorrow we plan to have a small party with her favorite aunt and her "grandma" rosemary. And everyone is excited :) I will be making pumpkin cupcakes with whip cream and sprinkles on top! :) The kids are so funny. They are totally excited she can join them in eating peanut butter and honey sandwiches for lunch :)

I should go. It's storytime ;) but I just wanted to say. We are good. And quitting hcg was probably the best decision I ever made! :) and my weight is holding steady at 159.6. So, I am relieved.

Have a happy happy week!

Moving on

Hey,

So, I made an executive decision to be done with hcg. Yesterday as I was sitting there thinking (barely able to fold laundry, I was so weak) I thought...why am i doing this..I am actually in a happy place right now...Why am I messing with that?

I've felt like my life was so out of my control for so long now...but recently (as I mentioned in a previous post) I am finally starting to feel like, if I really devote all my attention to my job all day long, I can actually manage it...and sometimes, kind of like it. :) I don't mean to sound depressing or anything, that's just the truth.

I've had lots of good days in the past week, and that is a change for me. I want to like my life and there is no reason I need to be any thinner....so, with that said....
I am moving on. :)

I plan to keep tabs on my weight, by making healthy food for us all and working out a few days a week, but i weigh 160(159.4) and that is ok with me. (And tereza yeah, Martin says I am hot ;) The other day (it was so sweet) ...(actually it was 5:45 am and I was barely awake standing at the kitchen sink making a bottle for sweet baby Macy) He actually said these words ;) "you look so good. No really. I just want to take the time to tell you I am so proud of you. You have four kids and look better than ever ;) (That means a lot to a person who's been struggling with their weight for 17 years,...has it really been that long? wow, I AM getting older.)

Speaking of which...my birthday is next thursday. Yep, happy birthday to me! :) Tomorrow morning Hubby is taking me on a date. I am pretty excited about it. It's been WAY too long. And on my birthday, Hubby arranged a birthday party for me. I am excited about that too. :)

This morning I met Ruth Anne at the kids club so the kids could play and it was super nice we got to catch up too. :) Now, I need to go soon and do some chores. I am going to make banana bread for a after school snack and then I am going to put the laundry away...it's been sitting in the living room for far too long.

Yes, I realize this post is totally and completely super random and I appreciate you sticking around and finishing reading...if you did.

HAPPY WEEKEND!!!

Not according to plan

um hi,

So this round...it is so not going according to plan ...I assumed I would at least lose a few pounds before these types of problems occured. But, ahh! This morning I was up .6 to 159. One friend suggested maybe my body is trying to say something..like hello...this is a good weight for me! And I agree...I just don't know what to do since I am only on day 6. I am super nervous that if I just quit it will mess with my metabolism and that's not really ok with me. . but if I that wasn't a potentional issue, I would quit in a heartbeat (especially since I have been having such a hard time having enough energy for "my life".

Anyhow, that's where I am at with hcg. (oh and I am doing an apple day today) Otherwise I am doing much better than in a long time. I feel like I can (barely) :) manage my life and all the things I need to do, but I am happy to do them.. Everything isn't a chore anymore. I can actually, sometimes, enjoy my kids...instead of feeling like they are all always talking and needing something at the same time. I am super thankful and no, I am not saying everything is easy and always hunky-dory. I just feel like a little bit sane again. ;)

Hope your week is going well, it's almost friday!

Today was hard

I am finding it hard to keep up..with everyone and everything. . I don't have any energy. . I guess I am busier than I was in one way (what with dropping off kids in am and picking up at noon and at 330 and my kids are busy anyhow....always :)
So, that's what I am finding tough this time...not cravings, but feeling tired or whatever.
I only lost .2 today, so hoping for more tomorrow.
I better go do dinner cleanup and homework and brush teeth and laundry etc. :)
hope you are well.

Day 4

Hi there,

I missed posting a day only cuz i was busy....anyhow,

This round is going well, quite well so far. . I am not saying it's no issue, cuz every once in a while when I slow down a bit, I realize I am feeling hungry or that eating something different from my menu sounds good, but it's really not that big a deal. . but i know that's cuz my life is really busy. It's a good busy though. I am finding when I just take the time for all the little things my kids need and to just enjoy their life and what's going on with them, it goes so much better.. if that makes any sense at all.

This morning I was 158.6. So I am down 1.4 pounds from my starting weight (I think). I'll take it :) It all adds up. It's been real nice to just see the scale going down, at this point.

I best go for now. My laundry is getting behind and I want to fold it up and put it away before my brother comes for dinner. (He is watching my kids :0 :) so I can go to the gathering for all the young sisters tonight. (Hubby may end up here too, but I just don't know. He got a few new things added to his plate at work, it'll be busy for him (for me :) for a while here. But, I oddly ;) feel up to it. I haven't talked about it much on here.. but I've felt pretty overwhelmed for a while now.
But lately, I guess since school started I have been feeling so much better. I feel like I can manage my life now. That doesn't mean I am good at it, but I feel like I can be, if I try real hard :)

Anyhow, I gotta go for now...later!

Day 2

Day 2 has gone well.
I have to admit I was a bit disappointed to still be up 2.2 pounds from my beginning weight. This morning I was 162.0, but I know i will lose it, and I am already started...2 days down 16 to go. . . whatever happens with the scale happens :)

Today we went to the conference for the morning and then hit the grocery store..whole family in tow...always a treat! :) and then the kids had naps and I ran a couple errands (hubby's tire was flat, so I tried to replace it for him...only to learn the tire stores are closed on sundays??)

Anyhow, then we went to the park for a picnic dinner only to be attacked by a swarm of bees...aw well...such is life. It's been a nice weekend anyhow...and now I am ready to sleep for like the next 20 years. :) just joking, but I am tired, so I will be back tomorrow sometime.

Hope you had a wonderful weekend!

wow

So this morning I weighed.............

164.2. Holy cow! That's insane. But anyhow, I am doing this and I have to at least lose a few pounds. Right? Right :)

Today has gone fine so far. Black coffee for breakfast then off to the races...getting kids ready to go for the day...then chicken salad I packed and took with me and now I am doing a bit of housework while the kids nap and having another coffee.

Here's to hoping the scale is down at least a couple pounds in the morning? :)

Sick of food

Ahh, I am done eating! I know in a few days I will probably want to take that back. But I am done eating and ready to start the 500 calorie portion of this diet. Bring it on, HCG! :)
This morning I was 160.6 and I am sure will be up more in the morning, but that's the way this diet goes. In my previous rounds, I was back down to my original weight(pre-loading weight...this round 159.8) after the first day of the 500 calorie portion. So, we shall see. But, I am excited about this.

In other news, i am so super glad it is friday. Even though this weekend will be busy (with our church fall conference all weekend) I am looking forward to seeing hubby and hopefully "relaxing" sunday afternoon and evening.

Happy weekend!

Gonna ...JUST DO IT!

Hey there,

So, I know it seems random, but I decided to just do it. HCG. :)
I got my new drops yesterday afternoon and I just feel ready, so I am EATING today. Loading up on fat to last me through the round. :)
This morning I was 159.8 pounds, so I am 15 pounds away from my goal. I don't expect this round to take me to my goal, I just hope it will get me down to 150.? (I think I will lose less this round, as I am closer to my goal and also cuz I have already done 2 rounds. I have heard you lose less the more rounds you do???)

Anyhow, on a totally different note. we seem to be getting settled in with the school thing. Which I am super thankful about. I met a friend who has 2 little girls my little girls ages, at the park this morning and Mia had a blast. Now it is rest time and I am tired, so I think I will sleep after putting in a load of laundry. I am starting to feel more sane. . . Which is nice. :)

Hope you are doing well. I will be back soon.

Hi

Happy Wednesday!

This week seems to be flying right by. Today Mia, Macy and I visited the library for storytime. It was real nice for Mia, she seems to be a bit jealous that the big kids have school and she has nothing new and special :) So, I wanted to do something fun for her. :)

This morning I was down to 159.4. I am not sure why...I guess I am a bit too busy to think much about eating. ;)

I don't really have anything else to say. But, I guess I should be working on laundry, so I will go for now.

Have a good one.

A good report

So,

The first day of Kindergarten went splendid. Ky loved it and when he got home was in great spirits and super cooperative. And now is taking a nap. AHH! I think I love kindergarten or the teachers or whatever. I am so relieved (many years of worrying have gone into this day,....in case you don't know us well,..I thought I would explain)

ANYWAYS!
Today has been a good day. I just finished tidying up. And go to get Brooklyn in a few minutes. Then we will go to grandma's to get Aunt Kara who is babysitting for us tonight for a parents meeting. . I am looking forward to that (I am just praying DH will make it though, since he called a few minutes ago to report a very stressful crazy day at work :( Oh well...such is life.

This morning I was still at 160.4 pounds.

I should go for now, but I hope you are having a terrific tuesday!

So many possiblities, so little time :)

Hi,

Happy Monday to ya. I can say that, cuz it is almost over :) :) Actually it was a pretty good day...Today we visited Ruth Anne to celebrate Ky's last day before he starts school. (and to celebrate Ruth Anne and I being friends, of course :)

Tomorrow my baby boy starts kindergarten. In one way, sad... another, happy. He needs something to do for part of the day and I need some time to think, so it's good :) I almost can't believe I have two and a half hours with ONLY 2 kids. :) It's gonna be good. The possibilities of what I could do in that time are endless! I mean...I could maybe actually talk to my friends,...if I tried to visit them ;) or I can maybe get in a workout at the gym...or I could actually clean like really clean...my house or organize the kids clothes (like that BIG pile in the corner of my room that I've been adding to since baby Macy was born. NEEDS TO GET GONE! :)
Anyhow, just what's on my mind today. OF COURSE, I will miss him and I really hope he loves school.

On the subject of my weight...it's been the same for the last 2 days...160.4 and I am ok with that...it's 3 pounds down from one point last week. (I know weighing every day may seem anal to some people but if you have fought your weight your whole life, you might understand it. It is reassuring to me to know I still weigh 50 pounds less than a few years ago ;)

All in all, I am doing pretty good and I hope you are too.

A different decade

Hey there,

So, I just wanted to share....I was down to 159.8 this morning. I am real excited to be back in the 150,s and i hope to stay there :) (well, secretely I hope to one day be in the 140,s but anyways!!)
I ordered 2 bottles of my favorite hcg, the spray,...It should be here in 1-5 business days...I plan to reevaluate at that point, but most likely get started with a round right away.

Not much else is new. I took Mia out for some mommy/daughter time and ran a bunch of errands this morning. It was thought consuming...my goodness she can talk! (like her mama :) but real nice. I found her a Super cute pair of nikes for $12. She LOVES them, so that was fun. Now we just NEED to find Brooklyn a pair of school shoes, but i am DONE with the running around for today, so I think we will do that tomorrow when DH gets back from fundraising (rental cooking).

Other than that,..what else to report? Hmmm...I fixed my favorite pair of shoes with super glue :) :) (the flowers on the top were falling off) Ruth Anne promised me a pedicure and coffee date for my birthday at the end of the month and My favorite tv shoes are coming back soon :) and we plan to have a bbq and hang outside...enjoying the last of the summer weather (i don't actually know it's the last of it...it just sounded good to say that. :)
Oh and my baby is almost ONE! oh my gosh, this year has flown by!
Amen! :)

I'm alright! ;)

Hey there,

Sorry for the lack of posts lately. . I have just been real busy getting caught up on laundry from all the vacationing and then getting kids ready for school and then baby macy is teething (or something !!!:) and ya know how it is? life is busy.

But, I am good. I am feeling super good about this school thing! :) Routine is good. Brooklyn went for her first whole day today and in her words "just loved it" :)
Ky heads in on tuesday. Should be interesting :) He is all gung-ho! but i did take him in for his testing today and he was all nervous but excited and concentrated real hard for like 10 min, but as soon as he could (as I chatted with his teacher)was doing somersaults on the reading rug :) :) :) That's MY BOY! :) Love him

My weight is 161. something lately. I want to be rid of my midsection but am just not so sure I am up to fighting that fight yet, still debating,....but I do have a call coming from the health food store once more hcg drops are in...so I guess I am mostly leaning toward doing a round soon.

All in all, life is good. We are settling in for the fall (i baked my first loaf of zucchini bread for the season this afternoon.) And my family was happy.

Have a good one.

About blogging..

Sometimes i just feel like posting, and sometimes I don't. Obviously lately I don't really feel like it so much ;)

I am good though. It's been a busy, stressful summer for me. It's been hectic for me..trying to juggle keeping my busy 4, 5 and 6 year olds happy and also a baby, who has different needs than they do (obviously! ;) And with DH working, A TON I've had lots of days that didn't feel so bright, with no light seeming to be at the end of that tunnel (if ya know what I mean?) But things are starting to look up again. DH has been making it home for dinner most nights lately, (even if half the time it is a VERY late dinner :) and he is getting a good bonus for all those long hours and possibly a newer position at work with better pay.

The kids are SUPER excited to start school this week and I am excited for a bit more of a schedule.
I am hoping to get back to the gym after dropping Ky off at kindergarten and it will be nice to have a bit of time with just the "little girls".

About my weight, it's up in the 161's these last few days, but I am totally pmsing, so that is expected.
I am not sure what my plan is as far as my weight goes. I really want to do another round of hcg and I am seriously considering it...once the kids are in school and we are settled in that routine but I am kind of nervous, cuz i feel like it added to my stress level over the summer, which I don't really need(more stress)... It's most important to me that I am good to my kids, but it really is nice to feel good about myself and currently..I don't. I feel like even though I am way thinner, I still have at least 10 pounds to lose (and my doctor backed me up on this, so I know I am not out of line thinking this)
...Hcg works...so well...but it IS stressful. But then again, so is any diet ...so then I think I should just be good with weighing 160, but that is stressful too, cuz I don't feel good about it...I know I am totally rambling, so I will sign off for now.
Have a great weekend!

The coast

Oh, it was wonderful :)
We had such a nice home. My mom rented a house that was just PERFECT for our whole extended family. There was a bed for almost everyone and even a bathroom off our room, so Macy could have her own "bedroom". . which was a huge help. :)
We hung out at the beach, enjoying the sunshine, sand and waves...as it fit. And enjoyed each others company, the hot tub, games and movies and food when we were done on the beach. All the kids handled living with lots of others nicely (this was my biggest "concern". But it worked out great :) I will try to post pictures soon.

About my weight, something miraculous happened! :) well, not really a miracle,..but I am not sure why...I weighed 160.2 this morning. That was a super nice surprise. Cuz there was definitely a lot of food..and some alcohol involved in the weekend.

Anyhow, I should go get the kids breakfast now. but I hope you are doing well and have a wonderful day!

taking the time...

I wanted to take the time to say i was the same weight this morning 161.4. But that's all i have time to say, really.
i am off to pack as the kids are napping and then we are supposed to take off for the coast. I am real excited :) :)
hope you have a great weekend. I will be back tuesday night :)
And hope to post wed that we had a wonderful vacation :)

Today

hey there,
So today we have done, well basically nothing and I feel so much better. Thanks :)
Anyhow, this morning I weighed 161.4..so no loss there. I am just glad I didn't gain after my snack of wheat thins and cheese last night. :o
I better go for now as i promised all the kids a nap in preparation of our beach trip :)
Have a great day today!

it's debatable

Is that how you spell it? :)
Anyhow...it really is debatable at this point, ...whether it is worth it to leave the house, alone (i mean me alone as...me being the only adult :)
And i know this stage won't last forever...but it's like by the time we are all finally ready to leave...it's time for baby macy to have another nap but if we are just home all day, the "big" kids are bored.
anyways...that about sums up my life currently :)
(we went to our church retreat center again today...just for "the day" we made it there by 12 to swim and made it til 3....seems ok...but it felt just so darn heck stressful and not worth it (seeing as the kids didn't really seem so happy all day! Oh well, such is the life as a mother of a few young ones, i guess.

About my weight, i was down to 161.4 this morning, so even though it's slow...it's headed back down. I am hoping to be down to 160. something by friday and stay at that while at the coast, but that will be "lucky" if it happens and I decided today..I just can't stress too much about it. This being a happy mother thing is all about balance, right?

Hope you are well

Today

So, today has been a struggle....everyone just seems so grumpy. Then I realized everyone seemed tired, so I put us all to bed and everyone but Brooklyn is still sleeping :) :) SUPER!

Anyhow, on the dieting note,...this morning I was 161.6 ...so as long as that number keeps dropping all is good! ;)
I need to get back into the habit of exercising, the last time I did that was jogging last wednesday (unless you count a 10 min. walk I took the kids on yesterday...barely a walk basically it was crawling on our feet, just as a distraction from our house :)
About exercising, I just plan to keep trying to get a bit in here and there til school starts...at which point I plan to go to the gym a few times a week after dropping the kids off at school :)

We are getting settled back in at home here. I just have 4 more loads of laundry to fold and put away and one more load to wash...I should get done just in time for our vacation at the coast with my family :) which starts friday night. We plan to stay for 4 whole days...hubby in tow too :) :)

Hope you are having a wonderful day!

how it happens........

The weight gain. :(
you eat too much...don't pay enough attention, Don't weigh yourself daily and wa-la! You weigh more.
Vacation, its great, but part of the fun tends to be great food.

So, this morning I was up to 162. UNACCEPTABLE!
So, I am going to be calorie counting til I am back under 160.

Anyhow, We had SUCH a great week. We went swimming, a ton. We played on the playground, hung out with friends, celebrated Mia's birthday, stayed up late, ate lots of candy :) We had a blast.

It was SO nice to spend the whole week together (well, if we weren't together (me and DH, it was cuz he was entertaining the older 3 kids.) I feel all readjusted and reconnected to the whole family. It was super nice to be less stressed and just enjoy my family, especially Macy. I realized I have been subconciously viewing her needs as one more thing to take care of, instead of enjoying her.
The kids seem so much happier since having daddy around. I LOVE it.

Anyhow, I should get back to my "stuff". I have been working on doing the laundry, the bills, etc.
I hope you are well, and in case you are wondering...I hope to update more in the future :)

I'm alive

Hi,

I figured at some point someone might (?) :) wonder if I died or something and i didn't ;) so I thought I would post.

We are doing good. Just hanging out and doing our "thang". The kids are still learning to do chores, but getting pretty good at it. :) They still LOVE to swim and constantly beg to go to grandmas, especially, to swim.

I am still mostly single-parenting. . .but the good news is that today "should" be the last day hubby has to do 2 jobs. :) :) :) I will believe it when I see it. . but that's what the plan is.

And best of all, he has the entire next week off. I CAN NOT wait. We are going out to our church retreat center for the week. And since he can join us, I expect it to be a good time! ! :)

Other than that! Not much else is new. This morning I weighed in at 157.2. So I am happy with that. The last time I went running was last sunday evening. But it felt real nice so I expect that I will be doing more of that in the near future (P.S. I am not sure why I say running. I NEVER run, it is more like a slow jog! ) :) :)

Hope you are well! Happy "almost" friday!

Just for fun

Just for fun..I dug up pictures from all my kids at the age (or around the age anyhow) that Macy is now. :) I think Macy and Brooklyn look the most similar. It's a busy but super fun age.. Macy is almost crawling and starting to talk. She says hi and no :) and Ky ky and dada and mama. :)
Enjoy! :)
Macy Grace

Mia Claire

Kyron Jake

Brooklyn Paige

(about my weight, I have been fluctuating between 155 and 160 still. I haven't been able to exercise in recent days, it's just been too darn busy being a mom and hubby working 14 or more hour days. . .Hoping that changes soon :) But for now, I am working on being happy exactly as it is. Cuz my attitude is up to me, right? :)

can't decide

hey there,

I can't decide if this should be a diet blog or just a blog about my kids or what, so it is just a little of everything (in case you hadn't noticed) :) Some days i think I just want to be fun and enjoy life, and forget about dieting, but it seems if I do that I gain weight, which is unacceptable, so I have to keep that priority too.

Anyhow, so today this is mostly a diet blog to say, Yay me! I was down to 158.0 today, so I am happy about that (last time I saw that number was last thursday, I would like to see that number go down tomorrow :) which means, note to self...don't get started snacking at moms later...I am headed there to take the kids swimming in a bit and ya know how I get while there? There's that "force" pulling toward the snack cupboard :)

Hope you are having a great week!

Good friends.....

...are the best! :)
How is your week going? Mine is all confusing, not bad, but..I feel like it is the end of the week. Like thursday or something. But, alas it is only tuesday :)
We are good though. Just hanging out, playing in the kiddie pool and at the sprinker parks around town :) Today i plan to take the kids to the library for new books and videos then to my moms to swim.
This morning I weighed 158.8 and decided that I want to get back down to 155, so i am going to work on portion sizes and healthy choices. Exercise, I have been doing a bit. I jogged a bit on thursday or maybe it was friday night and then on sunday I did some interval sprints on the treadmill. It felt good but wasn't too hard, so I know I must be in ok shape afterall. So that is nice.
Ok, I should go get kids doing chores and dressed etc . now, so have a good one

you know your baby is growing when....

you can't bathe her in the sink anymore! :)
I used to always stick her in my sink and rinse her down, soap her up and rinse her off, wa-la. Much faster and safer than the tub..cuz she is so busy right now, but...last night I just couldn't quite squish her in there :)

Chores and kids and other things...

Hi there,

Man, it is nice to be home and settling back into our "normal" routine, but one thing has changed....It is that Mama no longer does everything around here :) :)

While at my parents I realized something, the dishes and other housework are the chores that the kids are supposed to do, right? Well, I always felt like it was annoying to have to keep reminding them to do it, so I tended to just do it for them (i mean while staying at my parents) but then I realized that when they didn't have chores to do they tended to just fight, or sit around saying they were "bored" or just seriously ramble to me about nothing ;) Meaning they needed something to do....which is when I started handing the chores back out and man! It made such a difference, which is when I realized my kids need to do chores, like starting IMMEDIATELY! :) It was so great ...this morning we spent an hour doing chores, they helped set the table and empty the dishwasher and rinse the dishes after breakfast and then load the dishwasher and even start it oh and empty the dryer and then take care of their "pets" (bunny and hampster) and wow! this day has been going so much better. The kids are way happier and not as much fighting. My point here is that I realized the structure and being productive is super important, so we will be continuting this :) (oh and then they all got a star once done with the chores and getting dressed and brushing their teeth...once they have 10 stars they get a treat or prize ;)

Anyhow, I was super happy to be back down a bit this morning to 158.0 this morning. I was pretty nervous that I would gain a ton while at my parents (I am not sure what it is, but while there it is like I have this drive toward the snack cupboard way more often than normal, it's kind of weird and unexplainable!)
Yesterday I swam some laps and today I hope to go jogging later.

In any case, I hope you are all doing well and have a super day.

update

Hi, y'all. :)
Hope you are well.
We are. We've just been real busy. What? With 5 more kids and all. :) (tomorrow my parents get back from a much needed vacation.
So, my weight really skyrocketed this weekend. One day even up to 160.5. But I feel I am getting it back under control...just had a couple rough days there.
Today I went jogging and loved it and one day over the weekend I swam some laps. ...working on being healthy but "normal".
Anyways, it is late, so I should go. But hope all is well with you.

finally

I am finally posting. I am not entirely sure anyone even reads my blog anymore, but my guess is...at least a few people do but don't normally comment ? :)
Anyhow, today I was about 157. (I didn't get to weigh til after a cup of coffee. And I think I have made a decision and that is to let it go, for now. .the dream of 145 that is. I just can't handle the stress right now. I am going through a really stressful time right now. Where hubby has to work 16 hour days 6 days a week and the kids have been each going through rough times and I just feel like it isn't the time for dieting. The constant stress of it, is gonna send me off the deep end. Not really, but.... :) anyways, so i plan to weigh once a week and as long as my weight stays between 155 and 160. I am good with that. And I will be working out. I plan to go jogging tomorrow.
Anyways, I hope you have a good weekend